There’s so many thoughts ravaging my mind. These thoughts that I can’t come to terms with and I’m just struggling so much but I don’t know where to turn to. I mean the more I think about these things the more afraid I get, I really don’t know what to do. All I want is strength- the courage to pull through. I don’t just want to give up I want to try and know I gave it my all. For the past few nights I haven’t been sleeping well because of all these thoughts that keep on coming up. I’m struggling and I need help but it’s hard to search for it. Right now I need to pull myself together and stand strong but I just can’t. I feel alone and it sucks. I feel like I can only give in to my thoughts. Yet there is hope because I know I’m strong and I know that I’m a wonderful person. It’s just that I can’t do this alone. So many thoughts that I just want to yell and let every emotion seep out my very being. I want to explode and let my worries just float away. Unfortunately my life can’t be so ideal and I have to deal with the hand I’m dealt with. And so I’ve dug a grave for myself; a pit so deep that climbing it is nearly impossible. A slight beam of light strikes down at me and I want to reach out and go forth into something good. But I’m scared. These things;ideas that are going through every fiber of my being I’ll let them seep in but only for me to prove that I can deal with it. I will become strong and acknowledge that it’s okay to be afraid and to be somewhat pessimistic because that, in a sense, can be my strength. It can me the drive I need to prove myself wrong. To prove to the part of me that’s saying “give up” that I can grow and succeed. I’m human I can allow for error but I can also correct those same mistakes and become who I want to be.